To the four or five people who read my posts, I’m sorry for the short hiatus lol. I’m also sorry for how dreary this is about to be. My life hasn’t been all roses and happiness recently, and I was trying to wait until it got a bit better…
…but you know how that goes.
Maybe it’s because I use a pen name, or maybe it’s because I really don’t think many people read my blog, but sometimes I feel I can be more honest here. And honestly? Despite a lot of good things happening–and there have been several really awesome, wonderful things–I have been feeling…sad. “Down” would probably be a better word. And since I’m writing the truth here and am a big fan of using movie references, “the Pit of Despair” would probably be the most accurate.
I’ve been in the Pit of Despair for a while now, and it’s awful how I can’t seem to shake it. So many great things are happening, in my life and in other people’s lives. I should feel happy, but somehow I feel separate from the good. Sigh.
Again, to be honest, this time of year always gets me down. It probably always will because my best friend isn’t here, and September-December is always a giant reminder (as if I could forget). Let’s just be honest: I am aware of this all year, every day, every second, but it hits me hard sometimes.
I wish that the wonderful things felt better. I wish I felt like everything mattered. I wish I wasn’t such a downer and could just get over it. And I think I will soon. Hope so anyway.
In bookish news, I’m hoping to get some bookmarks made and will have a pretty awesome surprise to share with you in November. If you’d like to enter the NINJA GIRL Reader Giveaway, there’s still time! Some people have said ADORKABLE made them happy (which makes my heart glad), so possibly Sally & Becks could lift my spirits as well <3. Maybe I’ll even watch The Princess Bride again while I’m at it :).
Anyway, I hope you are all doing well–definitely not in the Pit of Despair and are instead reading awesome books! I hope it’s been a great October for you so far!
Happy reading,
Cookie O’Gorman
I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. It definitely doesn’t help when all those emotions hit you simultaneously. I find it easier to try and find The Happy in one of those emotions instead of finding the solution. Something that can make me instantly happy, that I can hold onto while I’m searching for more, helps keep that light of hope inside. Hopefully the next Pit of Despair moment you have is with a plum or a peach or a mango, perhaps, so at least then there’s something sweet in it for you too. Love your work!
Thank you so much, Christine. I can definitely see the wisdom in trying to find the happy or at least a bit of it in something. Hope is such an important thing, especially when you’re struggling, and I definitely hope when the next pit of despair hits, it’s with a plum lol :). Again, thank you so much for your kind words, and I hope you’re doing well!
Cookie thank you for being honest and real… I am so sorry to hear you are struggling in this area right now. But I will pray that you will soon come out of it brighter and even stronger than before!
Thank you so much for the encouragement and prayers, April. I truly appreciate them and you!
I have been the same way. Don’t worry girl you’ll get through this!
Right back at you, Jackie! I’m sorry you’ve been feeling this way as well, but I know you will get through it, too. Good luck, and thank you so much for your kind comment!